I ordered 2 new candles today for my alter! I got one that was “quiet moments“  scented (according to the label)  for Sigyn, and a Whiskey scented one for Loki =) Yaaay new candles! 

Okay, I’ve noticed a trend among a couple of Lokeans and myself. At first I thought it was just some coincidence, but then again, when it comes to Loki, things aren’t always as they seem. There is almost always a reason behind whatever it is he does.

…So this trend thatI’m talking about is this past November. 

I’ve seen many Lokeans talk about how Loki didn’t really come into/became part of their lives until this past November. It appears as though this past November, Loki really reached out to us..humans..and grabbed us by the “spiritual hand” if u will, and gave us..something to smile about..to believe in!

I myself have never been a spiritual person…I mean I went to Catholic school growing up, but I never felt any real “connection” with the Catholic faith, and I spent most of my life, not really believing in much, other than what I can see, and I was content living so. I felt as if everything was just made up stuff to make money off of, and get angry and sometimes frightened about. Then one day out of the blue, I began to research Loki. I don’t know why, since I had literally never even heard of Him before,(I hadn’t even heard of the Marvel Loki!) but I was just so drawn to Him. All I wanted to do was learn more and more about Him! For weeks I spent researching Him, all the while in the back of my mind, I kept telling myself that He wasn’t actually real, and that I was only researching him because I was bored, but after awhile I found myself unable to believe my own thoughts of denial. Then November came around, and I couldn’t hide from myself. Loki just made so much sense…I never heard His voice, but some how I just felt it. I didn’t even fully realize it at the time.

November 21, was the day first truly felt a connection..it was also the day He introduced me to my Spirit-guide, Sigyn ^-^

Sometimes…it can be quite frustrating being the only Lokean in a house full of..non-..Lokeans? Idk, anyways its sometimes hard to do my Lokean-thang every now and then -.- Like Today…*Siiigh* I had gathered some wood, and made a nice little pyramid out of sticks, carefully balanced right at the center of my fire-pit (Not as easy a task as I had originally perceived, mind u) and just as the baby flames were barely starting to poke from beneath the wood, my sweet ol’ Landlady/Maid pops out of NOWHERE with a hoes and pours a piss-ton of water on me and my fire-pit!!! >=( She was like “Ooops! Sorry dear I didn’t see u there! Don’t mind me, I’m just watering these flowers! Just scooch on over so you don’t get wet haha!” 

I try very hard not to get a temper with her, because she’s just a sweet old lady, doing her Old lady-thangs, but MY GODS!!! SERIOUSLY?! I WAS TRYING TO HAVE A SPIRITUAL MOMENT, AND SHE COMES ALONG AND RAINS ON MY PARADE!

So after she left, I had to goooo and gather a new fresh crop of dry wood, and I didn’t even TRY to make a pyramid the second time around, instead I just stacked them in as nice of a pile as I could, then finally FINALLY the flames were able to grow and grow until I nearly burnt my eyelashes off! Haha! and by using the flames from the pit, I was able to light some floral incense for Sigyn! I said some prayers and had a beautiful beautiful moment ^-^ I couldn’t help but feel rather connected to them both!  I think I’m going to do these fire-prayers more often =) I feel it helps strengthen the bonds ^_^ Hehe I’ll call them “Bond-fires” !

I…I think I’m going crazy…like legitimately crazy…I can’t sleep…I can barely even keep my eyes closed for 5 minutes! I swear I can hear a deep breathing coming from..fuck idk, everywhere! My mind?! Idk! At first I thought Oh yes it’s just the wind, then after i figured out that it wasn’t, i was like Maybe i can hear my dad snoring down the hall on this paticular night but then i realized that it was too…smooth and deep to be my dad’s raspy-ass snore, and everytime I close my eyes, I SWEAR I can feel..someone like, centimeters away from my face. I don’t feel a breath, but ..just a presence I guess..anyway, it doesn’t let me sleep! No matter how hard I try 2 convince myself that there is nobody on the other side of my eye lids, the feeling of someone slowly leaning closer and closer to my face, always eventually bcomes so strong that I MUST peek my eyes open at least a little 3X What is going on??? Y am I feeling these things!?!

Sigyn…I think I’ll just pray to Sigyn for some comfort and ease…becuz I’m like on the edge of a freak-out right now, and she is so good at comforting me. Its as if she hugs my soul and mind, releasing a wave of ease that flows over me whenever I pray to her. 

…Loki too! I’ll pray to them both! Sigyn for comfort and Loki..to help me get a fucking grip of myself!

Here’s a little drawing I made of Loki and someone whom He has claimed. Loki is reeaally good at calling u out, and making u face who u truly are on the inside, its one of His many “specialties” haha so I drew Him pulling out this young-man’s ”inner-self” ^_^ See, on the outside, this guy is a douche-baggy thug guy, who thinks he is tough shit, when in reality he’s actually a bit of a wimp. One of those all bark but no bite kinda guys hahaha and Loki laughs at his attempt to hide who he really is Xp