i might have a date by the time the night is over 

I haven’t asked out a guy in over a year! Actually I haven’t even been on a date in over a year either! 

I was supposed to do it on Thursday, but I ended up not being able to go see him =/ 

So these past couple of months of planning have all boiled down to TONIGHT! My big sister says that if things don’t work out in my favor tonight, she’ll take me out to drink away my sorrows   

 A lot of ppl, when looking forward to Saturday nights, look forward to going out to parties, in hopes of getting wasted and possibly if lucky enough, get laid, but here I find myself, in the early dawn of another chilled Monday morning, eagerly looking forward for the next Saturday night to come around, but not for parties. Oh no. The reason I feel such giddy eagerness for a Saturday night to roll my way is because, Saturday nights are the nights I go down to the market, in hopes of seeing my bag-boy crush, and possibly if brave enough, speaking with him! ^-^ This past Saturday night went so well! Even though I felt as if my heart had balled up in my throat, I was able to swallow it along with my fears as I finally let a “Heyyy um..-” escape from my lips, shortly followed by a shy, but happy conversation about calculator watches! Such a conversation may not seem like much to most, but to me, each word he said was like a lullaby for my racing heart! Each sentence he spoke was reassurance to me, that he did notice me, and that he is willing to take a break from his work, to have a little chat with me! 

I almost pity those extrovert ppl, whom can speak to anyone with ease, because I know that they can never feel the immense joy that one as shy as me feels, when we finally do speak out to someone! Seriously, it’s been more than 24hrs and I STILL feel as though I’m standing on a cloud of triumph and butterflies!  

BUT ASDFGJGHFD HIS SMILE MAKES MY HEART GIGGLE!!! GUISE SRSLY HE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A PILE OF HELPLESS EMOTION GOO!!! MIT HIS CURRRRLS AND MIT HIS GLASSES AND MIT HIS PERFECT FACE AND MIT HIS AWKWARD LANKY GOODNESS!!! THAT BOY WILL BE THE END OF ME AND I KNOW IT!!!