I saw my dream boy again, today…first time in like a week..*siiiigh* I still failed to tlk to him though =( I haven’t been able to look at another guy with any interest what so ever! I swear he has me bewitched or something, and yet I still find it nerve rattling just to go up and tlk to him..Whenever we do tlk, I can’t help but peep out mere one word responses, even though, deep down inside I’m dying to speak of all speak-able things to him. I wanna speak words to him that would make him smile, words that would hold deeper meanings, words that would make him feel special..as special as he is to me. Alas, whenever the time comes for me to say something, all that comes out are aimless words…aimless words and shy breathy smiles.
…but at least then I know that he is actually putting in the effort and actually trying to converse with me, despite my crippling shyness..a bit of thought that’ll keep me smiling tonight, I’m sure.
That awkward moment when ur exercising next to someone who is more fit than u, and ur just next to them like:
The others, out there
U guise know haw there’a a world outside of Tumblr? Well I just realized how awkward I feel in it
One of my eldest sisters came over for a visit, and I figured that since she’s pregnant, we’d just chat about that, and conversation would be sure to follow, but once I had ran out of baby things to ask, i realized, and I’m sure she realized as well…that I had nothing to relate to her with… and we just kinda stood there in awkward silence, with an occasional “yuuuup….soooo yeeeaaah..” even though no one had asked anything, i just keep..agreeing
We were never really close, but now it’s like…I have to search the deepest corners of my mind to find something we can tlk about! Then when she asks, “so what have u been up to lately? Has anything happened between u and that one guy?”
and i just have a panic-attack on the inside, and keep telling myself “Don’t mention tumblr. dont mention tumblr. dont mention tumblr”
and I’m like
Wha-wha-what? What guy??? Oh that one guy? Nothing.. i havn’t really been tlking to ppl these days, I’ve just been-…uh..u know I’ve just been doing..things
..the rest on the conversation just consisted of simple one word replys from my part
*phew!* I’m just glad to be back on here, where I feel socially safe!
Where r da goods?
Gah! I feel so bored on my dash! Y rnt ppl posting as much 2day???
I’m just here thinking:
Srsly guise…srsly..I’ve been staring at the same post for hours!(a few minutes really) and I keep hoping I’ll see a new post pop up, but for once…ppl just rnt posting, and I’m left here waiting, like
mean while my cat is looking at me, as if she’s waiting on me to do something
but I’m Just here kinda stuck in a…awkward rut..or something..Oh Shet, now I feel awkward..as if I’ve just made this post awkward
uhmmm…I guess here r somethings that are kinda awkward..
Did any of those make u feel awkward?