I ordered 2 new candles today for my alter! I got one that was “quiet moments“ scented (according to the label) for Sigyn, and a Whiskey scented one for Loki =) Yaaay new candles!
Sometimes…it can be quite frustrating being the only Lokean in a house full of..non-..Lokeans? Idk, anyways its sometimes hard to do my Lokean-thang every now and then -.- Like Today…*Siiigh* I had gathered some wood, and made a nice little pyramid out of sticks, carefully balanced right at the center of my fire-pit (Not as easy a task as I had originally perceived, mind u) and just as the baby flames were barely starting to poke from beneath the wood, my sweet ol’ Landlady/Maid pops out of NOWHERE with a hoes and pours a piss-ton of water on me and my fire-pit!!! >=( She was like “Ooops! Sorry dear I didn’t see u there! Don’t mind me, I’m just watering these flowers! Just scooch on over so you don’t get wet haha!”
I try very hard not to get a temper with her, because she’s just a sweet old lady, doing her Old lady-thangs, but MY GODS!!! SERIOUSLY?! I WAS TRYING TO HAVE A SPIRITUAL MOMENT, AND SHE COMES ALONG AND RAINS ON MY PARADE!
So after she left, I had to goooo and gather a new fresh crop of dry wood, and I didn’t even TRY to make a pyramid the second time around, instead I just stacked them in as nice of a pile as I could, then finally FINALLY the flames were able to grow and grow until I nearly burnt my eyelashes off! Haha! and by using the flames from the pit, I was able to light some floral incense for Sigyn! I said some prayers and had a beautiful beautiful moment ^-^ I couldn’t help but feel rather connected to them both! I think I’m going to do these fire-prayers more often =) I feel it helps strengthen the bonds ^_^ Hehe I’ll call them “Bond-fires” !
I…I think I’m going crazy…like legitimately crazy…I can’t sleep…I can barely even keep my eyes closed for 5 minutes! I swear I can hear a deep breathing coming from..fuck idk, everywhere! My mind?! Idk! At first I thought Oh yes it’s just the wind, then after i figured out that it wasn’t, i was like Maybe i can hear my dad snoring down the hall on this paticular night but then i realized that it was too…smooth and deep to be my dad’s raspy-ass snore, and everytime I close my eyes, I SWEAR I can feel..someone like, centimeters away from my face. I don’t feel a breath, but ..just a presence I guess..anyway, it doesn’t let me sleep! No matter how hard I try 2 convince myself that there is nobody on the other side of my eye lids, the feeling of someone slowly leaning closer and closer to my face, always eventually bcomes so strong that I MUST peek my eyes open at least a little 3X What is going on??? Y am I feeling these things!?!
Sigyn…I think I’ll just pray to Sigyn for some comfort and ease…becuz I’m like on the edge of a freak-out right now, and she is so good at comforting me. Its as if she hugs my soul and mind, releasing a wave of ease that flows over me whenever I pray to her.
…Loki too! I’ll pray to them both! Sigyn for comfort and Loki..to help me get a fucking grip of myself!
^_^ I think Sigyn might have rearranged some of the flowers I picked for her, last night. I hope that means she likes them!
Come to think of it…I did hear a lot of ticks and movements around my alter, when I was about to fall asleep. I know 4 a fact it wasn’t my kitten, becuz she didn’t sleep in my room last night.
Anyway, I hope she likes them ^.^
I am thankful foooor…Sigyn! I feel so so thankful that she is my spirit guide..oh! and I’m also so so so thankful that Loki has agreed to tag along too! Srsly, with these two guiding me, I know that my life will be full of things to be thankful for! Thank you Astral for my reading and “introduction” to my spirit guide! Ever since then I’ve been feeling so..happy! ..a little anxious and nervous too, as for what plans/lessons Loki has up his sleeves for me Haha!